Allah, I do not deserve him? Or do You just want to test on me? [part2]

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and Merciful Lord.

Acknowledgment: This could be a fiction story or real-life situation.

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Again, I asked "A" for her opinion on this teenager's thingy. 

"A, I am to astray from the right path, am I? I should have keep remembering Allah every time he popped out in my mind. But, it seems that my faith is not "tough" yet. What should I do? I wish not to think of him. Does Allah really want to give me 'ujian besar'?

"Okay, my dear, listen to me. Maybe Allah just want to know either you will still remember HIM when HE gave you a little bit feelings towards somebody. This "teenager's thingy" you are talking about is not just a thing, my dear. It's called lust (in Malay it is nafsu) and it's just a norm in our life. You just need to remember that Allah is always looking at you and HE will hear everything. Be it verbally or maybe it's only whispering in your heart."

Astaghfirullahalazim. My Lord. How You touch me in such a beautiful way. I keep asking for you to show me about him. And now, I can see the light. 

Friend of mine once has told me that when we vow that we have faith in Allah, we will be tested. 

Now I remember two verses in the Holy Quran:   

[Al-Ankabut: 2-3]

Do the people think that they will be left to say, "We believe" and they will not be tried?

But we have certainly tried those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars.

My heart: I have the most important thing to do now. I need to come out of this test.

My brain: But, how? You can't just forget him in a day?

My faith: Worry not; you can try to do it step by step yet continuously. Remember that, Allah prefer those who are 'istiqamah' even though you are only doing a small effort.

My heart: From now on, I must be more careful before admiring someone. 

My brain: Okay. We will just wait and see how it will progress. Good luck!

To M; I am not regretting that I admired you. It's not your fault anyway that I have been tested this way. But, I am praying that when the right time comes, I will find somebody just like you, or maybe better in a way that fits me, not forgetting that I deserve him too. (I am not saying that you are worse than others of course! Who am I to label on you. Only Allah has the right!). May you will be bless by Allah always.Aminn...

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Note: As in part 1, do correct me if I commit any mistakes. Thanks! =D